This is unbelievable. 5 days of doing what I say I will do!
We continue like this and soon it will be a lie to call myself 'unstable' or 'weakly willed'.
But there are still very many things for me to fix, and there are a few things I can fix NOW.
To start with, I'm not exactly using my time well. Although I try to keep up with my research jobs and the times for that, but I need to do more than that. I'm not using the rest of my time properly.
My waking up and sleeping routine is terrible. That's what I need to work on. Maybe that will help me start properly. Today, I'm writing this at 2:38pm, I've not done much with the first 8 hours of today.
I achieved what I planned to achieve yesterday, I worked over 5 hours, sent the research proposal, dealt with the paper, and reconciled my financial accounts. Monday - 100%, good start.
By the end of today:
The most difficult thing here would be closing all screens and opening a book by 10pm.
I don't feel as 'alone' and 'needy' as I felt a week ago. We will see what happens.
Thank you for existing, successful Josh, see you tomorrow.