Dear Diary,
Today I listened to the music. I pay for Spotify but haven’t used much these days.
I choose the genre I liked a lot. It used to make me feel better anytime I listened to.
But today it doesn’t have that kind of magic.
I tried different music that I know. Like songs I hear from Instagram or such.
It didn’t feel as good as its potential.
My partner wants to me to go out even for small things like trying new drinks at cafe.
But I feel like it’s not gonna make me feel happy as I want it to make me feel.
I just want to lie down on my bed and listen to podcasts while I sleep. But I’m not sure if it’s truly the thing I want to do either.
Where am I? I am so lost.
Thing I like these days… maybe it’s painting my nails. It’s easy to accomplish. It satisfies me. But I feel like it’s just substitute for drawing.
I don’t have to be creative it’s just colors and toppers…
I don’t have things I want to draw.
Last time I attempted to make a small comic zine… it just made me feel depressed even more. But that story was the only thing I came up. Couldn’t finish making it.
I wonder what’s wrong with me.
I don’t think it’s nothing wrong tho, I don’t like how I am feeling nowadays.
I want something brighter.