Dear Diary,
I don't know.
Bad things won't hurt me.
Good ones do.
It doesn't hurt me but that doesn't mean I forget.
It hurts me but that doesn't mean it won't made me happy.
I loved the wrong person.
No, I saw the wrong person at late time.
Now I can't let go of the
wrong person and the wrong time.
I'm still stuck in the wrong time.
I don't know when will I leave this time.
I know, if I want to,I would.
If I make my mind, I could.
But I don't want to.
I don't know.
Is it love? Attachment? Or Obsession?
But I ended up somewhere where I don't want to do anything but remember:
That person
That wrong time
That moments
That pain
It hurts me every night that I don't get to see you tomorrow morning.
But what I can do?
I remember those days when you wouldn't come everyday.
But seeing you one day is enough for me to live with the memory of you.
I don't have any hopes or desire to be with you.
I know you belong to someone else.
And that's why I stopped stepping forward in my dreams when I see you there.
I want you to be happy, I want you to marry the one you love right now.
I don't want you to break up with her.
Coz I don't want you to break.
I know, we won't see each other again.
No, I won't see you anymore
But I still wish for you to be happy from far.
At the same time, I don't have that courage to see you again with her.
I won't come to your wedding if I get the chance.
My heart won't take that.
I don't know, why you're in my mind rn?
And I don't know, if someone can replace you?
I don't know, if replacing you with someone would make me forget you?
I don't know, am I afraid to love someone? And that's y I want to hold on to your memory?
I don't know,
I love you even it's not love.
You make me cry and also happy.
Do something.