Dear Diary, I feel detached from my body. It's like my soul starts to go up but my body keeps me down. I feel captivated in my self. I get these strong feelings of not wanting to be alive. I'm not right for handling it. The only time I can relax and breathe properly and take what comes as it comes is when I study. It keeps me ambitious while the rest go downhill. I judge my self too hard. And it's harming my self esteem. I need to estimate and boost my ego more often. I can't keep blaming myself for being incapable of handling life and it's flaws.
- When will love go around for me?