Swallow me mother earth 05/01/24

Dear Diary,

it's my 3rd day today and shit bro nowadays I am having short term memory loss 😭😭😭😭😭 whyyyyy😭😭😭 I took my pad out and kept it in bathroom to throw without wrapping it with paper like only folded it, it was half open (not so bloody thank god) but I forgot it😭😭😭 and then my brother just turned 18... went to take bath😭 He took bath and came out didn't say anything and I still dont remember then my mom came angrily and was like what is that?! V just came out after taking bath throw it out!!!😭😭😭 so embarrassing!! He went to college but I dont know how to face him after he comes back or maybe I will forget it as well🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲