Dear Diary, Long time since last. I have been feeling weak and ill most days.. No energy for writing. I feel like burned ashes. I have so much to say but I don't know were to start. I cut myself today with the same kitchen knife used for today's supper. It was scary seeing mom cut the carrots with that same knife which just some minutes earlier had blood stains on. I regret it. So bad. I should be carefuler next time. My dog is having her puppies really soon. 3 baby puppies. And some bad news my friend said she didn't want to be friends with me anymore. I'm too sick for her.