October 20, 2023

Dear Diary,

Found myself crying while looking at his pics again. Specifically selfies of when he was into me, makes it 10x more painful yknow? Flavorful! Chefs kiss! Add seasoning! And never forget the salt... sprinkle it on the open wound!

Best way to describe that.

Watching a main character moving on is fun and also motivating, that's because they speed up the process to fit into the limited movie mark. But in reality, it feels like a leech is sucking your ballsack for months. And that's coming from someone who doesn't have balls or a ballsack. 

Dear God, im fearing for my life, please take it already so I have nothing else to worry about.

Kinda kidding,

Aya

P.S can't fully see what im typing cuz there's this wriggling lines covering my vision. Prolly a sign to rest my eyes for a bit.

P.P.S maybe the wriggling lines' fault that I didn't see his red flags.

P.P.P.S Dang it! I remembered how he taught me why there's lots of Ps in P.S sometimes.

P.P.P.P.S crying.