Dear Diary, I'm worried about my SO but at the same time I know it's inevitable, I have to be prepared. I have lost two important men in my life. I know losing him is going to destroy me. Like the first two, I was warned, so it's not like it will catch me completely off guard this time. Nothing lasts in this world anyway. I will be devastated, destroyed, but I will pick up the pieces and heal and move on with my life - like I always did. I think I have more reliable support this time around, but if not, that's fine too, I will make it, like I always did. The mundane part will be kind of boring. Sorting out stuffs, selling most of them, move, or stay etc but yeah, that's life, flow with the change when it occurs.
It's hot and sunny outside. I'm going to stay inside today.