May.01.2023, Boiling Point

To whom it may concern,

Anger was an emotion I have always tried to avoid, growing up in the household that I did, it was a very common emotion for my parents. I never wanted to be an "angry person", but I've noticed of late that I can't seem to have much control over that anymore. I know it's in there simmering away, I'm not sure when it will boil over and how long before I can put the wooden spoon on the pot to make it stop...Could it be from the stress that has happened to me of late or maybe I just don't see what is the point of living in a world that is designed to make it near impossible to even enjoy life?

All my life I was told that your 20s will be the freest and exhilarating time of a person's life. I hate to say that this has not been the case for me, almost the complete opposite. Instead of backpacking across Asia and Europe I am still stuck in my hometown, not able to afford 3 meals a day. Working dead end jobs and struggling with the terrible highs and lows of my Bipolar ridden mind. I have come a long way and I will always be proud of where I am today, but that anger is just getting stronger by the day. 

All I have is questions and no answers, but I guess thats the whole point in the end.