April 15, 2023

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Dear Stranger,

I really don't think I'm strong enough. It's getting bad again, being mean to myself constantly for no reason, smoking too much, and god the emptiness... I can't fucking take it. I wish someone would tell me exactly what I'm supposed to do here, there's a path I can't see, a road I need to take, but no directions anywhere. I'm lost, scared, sad, small.

I'm not capable of much, not me. I thought I would do it all alone, but I never could. Still, part of me wants to run. Run far, far away, start all over, destroy myself and rebuild bit by bit. I wish someone would tell me it's all their fault, that I'm enough, that I'm doing the best I can, that I deserve this life, that I was made for it. But there's no point, it's not even true.

I'm just so, so, so tired my dear stranger. And I'm so very sorry.

Love, C

Lydia Rose ✓

Apr 15, 2023 · 41 views

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Lydia Rose Apr 16, 2023

I'm sorry you can relate Tonotbescared, be strong <3

tonotbescaredApr 15, 2023

i could relate to every word, i wish i couldn't

Lydia Rose Apr 15, 2023

Dear C, thank you for your kindness, it truly means a lot <3

WILLOWApr 15, 2023

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WILLOWApr 15, 2023

Dear C, I used to use the words you put in this entry in my diary like every time i wrote. We don’t have to be strong but we can at least hide, wait till all the bad things and feeling’s gone. This might sound silly when we struggle so hard. Even myself would forget this fact very easily as if its a smily on beach. But it shall pass and you can wait untill then. I was wating in my bed. I would skipp taking shower. But whatever! you can wait untill warm spring comes for you. Hugs, A

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