Hey. Today and the entire week has been so shitty. I hate what's going on around me and the things that everything is doing to me. I feel like I can't speak to anyone and when I try to, I choke. I can't let out anything because if I let out too much everything will become even worse. People at school don't make it any better. They are all douches, and they won't ever shut up. Sometimes I want to just break down and cry until I can't anymore. But I can't even do that. Because then I'm "playing victim". No, no I'm not playing victim. My life has been terrible. But it's also been good. But the bad things always seem to stick with me. And I can't get rid of them. I hate that about myself. I'm not good at forgetting or letting go. I get attached too easily. That's an extremely bad thing. But no one can know that or they will use it against me.