Dear Diary,
I had an okay morning today. It wasn't the best, but it was better than some mornings I've had already. I'm trying to be more positive, more confident. I said I was going to start some new hobbies. Like reading, maybe finding a sport to play, Research, you know things worth investing my time into, then sleeping. Because I can sleep my whole life away if you let me. I started on a book called " The Gas Lighter Affect " I probably read about 6 pages and not because I was uninterested, I don't think my mind was there at the time. But now my mind feels a little clearer, my soul wants cleansing and changing, I can feel it.
You just have to push yourself honestly. And sports I don't know, maybe something dealing with water. Rowing, Parasailing, Jet skiing. Things in that nature. I think it would keep me busy and give me some peace of mind because water is soothing, and it looks amazing. I remember I use to go and sit at the beach just to look and stare at the water. Didn't even want to get in. The sounds of the water is nerve relaxing. And when I say research, I mean things to help me over come obstacles. Learning new things about this world. Finding peace. You know. I also like spiritual radio's. You know the church influencers like Joel Osteen. He's pretty darn good if you ask me. He can uplift my spirit within minutes. So I have a lot I want to start doing so I can be unavailable. For years, I've always found myself helping others, I'd give my last it wouldn't even matter because I always felt as though I would be okay in the end. And what I mean by that is I always knew I could be more than who I am today I just was distracted by so much and got so comfortable where I was to the point where I didn't even know myself anymore, or the people I chose to help really had no good intentions towards me. But the nice me is OVER. I'm not going to walk around here and treat everyone like crap. But I am going to pay close attention that have my best interest, and those who don't will get left behind.
This is my year. I'm claiming in now!