Dear Diary,
I was talking to a stranger yesterday, aj fir usse baat hui, kal jab usse baat ho rahi thi, maine puchha how is life and wo share krne laga shaadi ka stress and all but aj baat hui and he was like humara kuch ho skta hai kya, he meant ki shaadi k liye hum dono dekh hi rahe hain, why not explore each other, kya pata frequency match ho jaaye and mai usko sahi lagi ya jo bhi, but kundali toh match nai hui, and I said Idk , usne kafi convience krne ka try Kiya but mai aise kaise out of the caste ja k explore karu, love marriage hoti toh baat alag hai but yahan jab pata hai ki shayad nai maanenge ghar pe toh kyu hi involve hona and so I said rehne dete hain na, mere liye mere mummy papa hi dhund rahe hain, and seriously Idk , matlab achanak se aisa toh bilkul hi expect nai ki thi so I don't know kya answer krna chahiye tha, yesterday wo Mr IIT XLRI ka bhi message aaya tha, ki tum toh gayab ho gayi ho, tum mujhe sahi lagi n all but pata nai wo mujhe utna sahi laga I mean baat hua hi nai hai but jo thodhe se 5 min k messages hue hain unse hi samjh aa raha hai ki thought process hi alag hai humara ya hoga.,
baki ek banda jo interst dikha raha tha, toh I thought ki chlo dekhte hain baat krte hain, I asked him a lot of questions, thik thik jawab diye usne, wo bhi shayad mere scars dekh k darr gaya hai, lol, but I think usme bhi guts nai hoga itna ki keh sake kuch and fir agar kuch aisa hai bhi na toh I would not like to go ahead with a person jo koi stand nai le skta hai aur itte se baat ko baki jitna mai usko pasand thi uske upar rakhe ya fir maybe uske liye badi baat ho ya sirf beauty parameter pe consider kare, I would not like to go ahead with person jisko scars k liye itta sochna pade, aur iski koi gf nhi nahi rahi hai na hi koi behan hai, toh ladkiyon k mamle me toh bolul bhi expertise mai hai ye bhi ek baat hai,
so abhi I guess the right time nai hai aur inme se toh koi bhi right person nai lag raha mujhe...sometimes I feel that I am being too picky but Idk if I should be or I should not, but let's see kya hota hai, kaun hai mere destiny me.
aaj Deeksha and Swami ka engagement ka photo dekhi Vinita ki story pe, acha laga ki inka relationship tha and they are marrying each other now on 19th. Kitna sahi hota hai na, I also wanted to fall in love with someone and marry that person but koi nai ye treasure hunt bhi thik hai...
aur kya likhun, just wasting my time these days...
goodnight diary.
btw scars are cool for me, scars are beautiful.