Dear Diary,
This will be my first entry tho and i would like to call you penny, only if you could speak to me once and confess me if you're comfortable with it. I really feel like writing today coz i I really needed someone to lean on. So what happened was like first time in 3.5 months of my relationship i felt like how physically away I'm from him. So i was feeling so distracted lately with that weird feeling which didnt allow me to concentrate on my studies and then I checked my texts where I saw a text from him this evening that he missed his first evening class coz he woke up with 145+ heart rate and chest pain. " I thot i will die", that was his words. And i was kinda broke inside as he's the only reason that I want to live, wondering that maybe I deserve happiness as well regardless of the hell that I'm passing through from my childhood. I wish if I could call him straightaway after reading those texts, if I could only be able to go and meet him 'sighs'. Ig the reasons I'm still not able to do these things lies behind how it's all been started. Ive no words to write now. Man, i need you. So please!!
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