Dear Diary, again, I feel weak today…
I need to soak sun shine but I don’t feel like walking around outside. So tired. I can’t even wash a dish.
12:02
Yesterday I decided not to take nap today. But I did after lunch time around 2pm. And woke up around 5.
Mmm two things: I feel better and I might messed up my sleep schedule.
I was feeling weak and literally had no energy. It’s very similar to be depressed. But I don’t think I was. When I feel like I can’t do nothing, I immediately think it is all about my mental health issues. But sometimes it’s only because of my physical health issue. If I could realize that earlier, I would enjoy watching Netflix in my bed without feeling nothing negative about myself. 🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🤷🦤
10:00
Weep
My life :(
What to do with my basic problems…health and mindset
I am doing what I can do. Look I don’t spend my day without changing my clothes anymore. I go outside and walk. Don’t be sad. I am doing better.
I will go listen to funny asmr…
What am I… nothing is interesting
Even fuller house made me irritated…! Well I guess it’s because of my hormone pill because it wasn’t my usual emotion before that. I tended to be sad instead of being mad. So hmm basically I don’t know how to deal with it. What am I now? I am a person who wasn’t me. But it’s actually the same exact person. Pills! Crazy!
I am irritated with my body because it’s not working as I want to live in it. I feel like I should have been a happier person who can work full time like others do. But see I am not healthy enough. How much I eat the nutrition simply disappear and I feel always exhausted and find myself sobbing after my “nothing but sitting” job that is only two days in a week. My life is stupid and I don’t see my future. It feels like my future won’t get any better.