October 14, 2022, Delhi Diary part 2

I am at the busy stop now. Waiting for the bus to dharmshala. 

It was my last day in Delhi. For the Last 2 days, i am feeling a little, (uneasy/scared), i can't tell the exact feeling, but i feel a little something in my gut. I am little scared, how difficult it's going to be at Vipassana. Last time i didn't have any previous reference and i was 3 years younger and i was excited and dint have any great expectations.

This time i have a refrence, a previous experience. 

Also, despite meeting everyone here in Delhi, i feel a little alone. It was great, it was really great meeting everyone,but somewhere, i got this feeling of being alone. I mean i am going alone, i may not always be lucky to meet new people there. 

Also workwise, i think there is something wrong definitely. I am busy whole day with Canary, and not able to focus on the space stuff and all. This isn't great. I know. The lunches are on the company, it feels nice for a moment. But this isn't me. 

We talked so much about life and stuff and i realise how life is. But... 

This is life too. This confusion 😀

♥️♥️

--panda--