I don’t wanna relapse

I miss cutting….

It’s 4:56am and I woke up at 3am thinking about cutting them I had mini anxiety attack and now I feel like peeling my skin off, I wanna cut so bad rn but I know I shouldn’t but omg I want to so bad. I keep thinking about it and it won’t leave my head, even when I’m happy I’m still thinking about cutting just because.

Fucking hell

Why me…