Dear Diary,
तुम आना मेरे पास और आकर थाम लेना मेरे हाथों को, बिना कुछ कहे, बिना कुछ पूछे, प्रेम में हाथों को थाम लेना एक प्रेमी को पूर्ण कर देता है।
~ Copied
Hii diary, its 1:24 am and I am writing again coz after listening to Arihant's intellectual talks and after reading his articles bas mera mann ho gaya likhne ka, now I am thinking who actually I am as a person, I feel that I am a very easy going person who does not care much about things, like I have an attitude of not caring much about things, I live in present, I don't plan or worry about future, I just exist in presence and try to live in the moment, do whatever I want to do although definitely there are things which I wish but can't do due to various reasons but I feel I am not disciplined, I am just who I am.
I am a kind of person who wants to choose "Brutal truth over diplomatic lies " For me being transparent is important, although it's not always good to show world how you feel sometimes it's better to not let people know about what you feel or how you will react. I feel I am very spontaneous, like I am enthusiastic about something today and maybe slow down just next day. Anyways I am a person jisko kal ki chinta nai hai, I think that jo bhi hoga I will be able to deal with it or I will figure it out, this is a bad attitude although I am like this only. There are alot of things to improve within me but let's see.
Apart from this I have a fantasy or I should say one of the thing in my bucket list is that I want to travel to random places without any pre planning, in simple words I want to get lost atleast for sometime, I want to meet new people, explore random places etc , it may be a solo trip or with someone else on my side, but I want to do this in my life, board a random train and get down of train at any unknown place, explore the city whether good or bad, I just want to do this, I guess doing this will definitely heal me and will help me in knowing myself what I am and what do I want from myself, for myself,etc. But yaar, I always want to be a good daughter first, I want to make my parents'life easier, I want that they never feel lonely or helpless when I do exist in this world, I want them to fill content with the thought that I am always there for them and I want to, I want them not to feel lonely, I wish they could spend as much as time they want to, I want to do the best for them.
Okay that's all for now :)
I want to write a blog with the tittle "how to deal with a broken heart" but for that I guess I need to wait little more.
Yaa, I want to buy a evil eye wrist band from a long time but for some reason I end up not buying abhi I was going through the screenshots and I saw some of the pictures I thought I will buy but I didn't purchased any of them, I know the reason though why I didn't bought it.
Anyways, now I should sleep.