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Dear Diary, today i went to the museum to see Howls moving Castle. Last night I was really worried, because I didnt end up going to the barber and thought my long hair looked bad after washing. Today I thought it looked ok though. Not great, but passable. Still I felt a bit bad about it, but I wouldn't let that get in the way of me potentially seeing Spike. If she thought I loooked that bad cause of an overdue haircut she would be a superficial person. I just didnt feel like getting a haircut because it was raining all week and the other usual stuff.
I arrived at the museum half an hour early so I had time to check out the shop. It looks like a good museum too, maybe I will visit it again sometime. I ended up buying a book on anime as high art and pop culture. Because maybe I could use it for my thesis and I thought I would have a subject to talk with Spike. The book ended up being more expensive than the price tag in front of it said, but oh well.
So I waited around for her to show up. But she didnt end up coming. I thought maybe she would be late, so I kept turning my head when I already sat in the cinema. And I picked a seat where she could be sitting next to me.
But again she didnt come. I can't really blame her since she only said that she would probably be there and my only indication that I would come was the reaction. Still I thought it had been so suspicious how she had dropped that date into the group, I thought for sure she would be there.
The film was nice. I alreasy knew it of course, but seeing it on the big screen made it much more immersive. Also since it was a kids showing it was really cute to hear the kids reactions from time to time. They were all really well behaved, but sometimes they would ask their parents questions or remark how young Sophie looked at that moment. When she turned into her normal self while asleep, one boy even asked "Who is that?" lol The adults next to me were way more annpying because they laughed at every little visual gag in the film. Especially the stuff the dog does. I dont really get people like that.
Afterwards the museum even gave drinks and sweets for free for everyone because it was a kids showing. It's way better being a kid than an adult sometimes. I hope I get to have kids at some point. There wasnt really any point to stay for any discussions since I didnt know anybody. Nobody else from the tutorium was there either. So I had a solemn walk back to the train while it was drizzling, thinking why she didnt come. I mean it's positive that she didnt see my hair, but still I had already imagined that we could do the same thing next week when they show some African movies.
Also I noticed today that she changed her Whatsapp profile pic. She had recently changes it and it looked really good. Now it's the same pic, but the edges to the left and right are cut off and replaced with bits of a photo of the forest ground or sth. And the pucture itself looks much more yellow. I wonder if she tried to color correct it to try and mask some red spots on her face. Thats the only reason I can think of for the yellow tint unless she really likes that color for some reason. Huh strange. It doesnt look bad now, but before her lip stick looked darker and redder. Well it's none of my business, today showed that she probably doesnt think that much about me.
Bye
PS: I just saw that she changed her description. Instead of a 🌱 behind her name there is now a 🖤. And her desription now says: pleasures remain, so does the pain. Thats from a depeche mode song. Hm, I think the song is about wanting a relationship without words, because words can hurt. Don't think I understand the context of this. Probably not about me. But if she was in a bad mood today that would explain her absence.