September 19, 2022

 

Dear Diary,

You know why we are not getting okay?

Coz we want to be fixed by the same person who broke us. That's why.

Hi, when I woke up in the morning, I wasn't feeling okay, I wanted to talk to him desperately, I tried to avoid but I ended up calling him, I felt better for sometime but it worsened my sadness more, I was left more heart broken.

Idk why it's so difficult for me to move on but I definitely want to right now. 

I talked to many people today starting with Mandeep, he asked me to do video call so I did, it felt little better talking to him but then I talked to Arihant and his intellectual thoughts and conversation, it helps sometimes maybe today also, then I had a small chat with that insta guy, then I texted Dr Rahul Ranjan, he always says he is very happy when I text him first. 
And had a small conversation with some stranger on that website and he turned out to be from the same country and city where S belongs too. So I thought as much I want to get over things something happens that I start thinking of him and now I am feeling little uneasy again.
Idk when and how it will get better. 
But I hope that I get someone in my life who will love me unconditionally and will stay forever. Amen!
I want happiness and good vibes.
Goodnight, I am feeling little sleepy today as I cried and I forgot its Manisha's birthday, I will call and wish her now then sleep


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