Dear Diary,
Hi,
You know writing helps when I am anxious, and right now I am, I don't know what I am feeling it's just that I don't wanna a shed a single drop of tear over him getting married.
I feel bad very bad but I have to get though it, I have to be strong mentally, I am very anxious right now, I have to stop thinking about all those things, I don't know how to forget all these, I used to judge Vinita for the thing that she had with Dharam but now I understand all of those things.
I don't know yaar how to deal with this but I don't want to cry , I don't want to be sad, I don't it to affect me anymore bcoz right now I am not in a good state physically I don't want it to affect me more physically and mentally.
But I am never a person like Vinita I mean when Harshit tried things with me I stopped him completely and never crossed the line and asked him not to because I can't let someone cheat over someone and I all above that I can't be the reason for that.
Anyways I am going to take a shower maybe it will help little.