I miss him

Dear Diary,

I miss him, people say I miss the way I was with him. When I can’t sleep at night I still remember how we met. Why I just can’t stop thinking about you. You moved on, why I can’t do the same? Sometimes I wonder, are you happy? Are you happy with her? I’m selfish and stupid to think you are not, but deep inside I just want you to be unhappy, well not unhappy but not with her. Why her and not me!? I opened my heart with you! We went on dates and you made me think we will be together and suddenly you say “no thank you”. “No thank you?” It was me offering you water to say no thank you? 

After our little break up, we used to talk, what happened after? Did you forget me? Did you just erase all the memories? I want to be with you so bad, what did you do to me? Two years and still can’t get over.