August 22, 2022

Dear Diary,

Crying in night and feeling sad has become a more frequent thing these days. Cant help it. Suffering of my life. I have to go through my share.

That ache in throat and stomach are very real. 

Komal messaged today, she says she miss me and that she is probably not happy. 

🥲🥲. It wasn't even her fault, it was her parents. I said I miss you too.

But i don't know what should I do now. I cannot do all the engagement breaking drama, it'll hurt her, her family and more importantly my mama. I don't know what to say them now and what about the other guy, he did not even do anything.

This may not be a good idea, but, then, how will she live happy, won't she always have this regret. Won't i always have this regret. 

I feel so weak now, so strength less. She is sad, because of me. And i don't know if I'll ever be happy again. If i'l ever stop crying now. 

I don't know, all of a sudden, everything is changed. 

Why did i get into this ever, why, why fall for people...