It's 8/11, the super full moon. I would've fasted today, but unfortunantely I didn't I actually ended up over eating, and I accidently ate meat. I feel so disgusting, not even for overeating alone, but because I overate and tuned out so much that I didn't even realize I was eating meat. As soon as I realized Is pit it the fuck out and I wanna throw it all up rn, but I'm just gonna let my stomach hurt for a little and if I need to throw up later I will. I'm gonna drink water and fucking get my life and myself together rn. I can't go out tomorrow looking like shit when I'm seeing Kim, especially when I know she's looking hot and living her best life and here I am, binging and feeling so ugly and angry at Cesar and fucking sky, and all of that. Ugh.