24: My heart’s rambles.

( if anyone reads this, do tell me if I’m being disrespectful. And also what else should I add to my final declaration 😜)

I just want to get it out of my system. I wanna say all of this to my husband but I’m not sure if I’ll really say it or not. 

My husband is trying to make his mother and me be in good terms all the time unlike the first daughter in law. We’re already in good terms. So it annoys me sometimes when he keeps on mentioning it to me. 

He asked me to wear a traditional dress for our wedding anniversary in October. I didn’t mind that much. I’m fine with it because its an addition to my collection. When we spoke to my mother in law over the phone she asked me to wear a casual dress and I was kinda happy that I can escape the traditional dress. At the end I would have chosen whichever I like and feel comfortable anyway. My husband said, “She looks super happy. Because I was asking her to wear a traditional dress.” 

My mother in law’s reply, “My order is more powerful than yours,” in a fun tone. But I completely lost it. 

Am I a dog or a pet? To obey your orders! What does she take me for? I may be quiet and be non-rebellious unlike the first daughter-in-law but I do respect myself a lot to tolerate all this just for the sake of keeping everyone around me happy and satisfied. 

I’m gonna tell my husband that I will not tolerate such behavior. I won’t quarrel with her or express my discontent to her. But I’ll sure as hell will express it to him. And also make myself clear that I’ll do whatever the hell I want but I won’t disrespect her. I can lie once or twice to make her happy. I can not follow her order if it is not a request. And lastly I’ll do what I like and don’t try to be a puppet master of my life.