Dear Diary,
I am in good senses today. In the right mind to question my thoughts.
Why is it that I think of her so much, why do I get worried about her. I know that she doesn't think about me. She doesn't want me to be worried about her or care about her so much. I don't know why I desire her so much, when I know that she doesn't desire me and the way I imagined our relationship, its not going to be that. Everyone has said that if she didn't feel it all these years, she is probably never going to feel it.
It should be the time when I should wrap all my love for her in a small bag and keep it in a corner in my heart. Only to be opened by her if she ever feels the same. And i should keep the rest of my heart free.
I should meet new people and explore life as it comes. So much attachment with her, and especially when she doesn't have same feeling is only a recipe of sadness and i don't want to be sad.
It's nothing about her, it's just about me, how I should be sane.
❤️
--panda--