Dear Diary,
Ruchi makes the best pizza, and now the best cake too, the paneer tooo, and best starfruit drink i ever had.
She is amazing. I am so happy to have friends. I don't know how sad would be my life without them.
About mermaid, i asked her yesterday only if she would come to ruchi's pizza party, she said ok and today at the time when I were to start from home i messaged her and she didn't reply, and was planning to canecl without telling. It's one thing to not come but cancelling without telling did something to me. If it were me, and we had a plan, i would not cancel, i would go to office early and drop everything at hand half an hour before and even if i could not make it or getting delayed also, i would tell her. On the other hand, i would cancel like this on people i don't care much about. She does like this many times. And then despite all my learnings i get hurt for sometime. It's good that i have control and i don't make serious decisions when I am mad. But i feel, how will I live if it's always like this, maybe I'll never be her priority and i know that maybe no one else will also have me as priority, but the fact that i do things for her will make me have expectations. Then will we always be sad about small small things ? Or maybe momentary hurting is ok, i still adore her ❤️.
I know i can't wish it to be easy, kahil gibran said that
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and
caresses your tenderest branches that quiveri n the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Goodnight ❤️❤️