Dear Diary,
I am in train, and it's standing on a station and i hear on loudspeaker the prayers, Azan. And I just finished the book 40 Rules of love.
I started it long ago but left it in between. Then when my two books from Richard feynman finished, i was thinking of picking up something, that's when it came to my mind to pick this up again. Also when I last met her and gave her a book, she said i may have left this one in between too like others 😀. So i wanted to finish this and tell her that it's not incomplete now.
There are many characters and many things happening. But i didn't feel the connection with shams of Tabriz as much as I did with others. Ella, Aziz, kimya and Rumi.
At times i felt so deeply lost in the emotions in the book. I could feel what they were feeling. One thing is, that to tell such deep emotions in such real way via words is no easy job, in the sense that one must understand these emotions so deeply, To understand and write an emotion from its origin and tracing it's journey point by point to a different end must require a heart so close to your conscious.
And to believe and explain love in such a way, i can imagine, one may have to feel totally surrendered and be in some sort of trance.
Characters of Ella and Aziz moved me a little. In the end Ella says that now she wants to live life one day at a time. It was so empowering. She didn't have a job, had no money, yet she had no fear of uncertainty, she could have fallen back into her comfort zone, but she decided the other way.
Also, the way she did funeral for him and people came from places to his funeral, it was something opposite of what I have been thinking of life(like there is no life after death), but maybe in a different way, there is. Life isn't just what we live, in a way life is also part of other people whose lives we have touched.
I think of shyam and how i did it, i think i didn't do it right. Once again, i have regret for my lack of courage. ☹️.
I wish someday i would just transform and start showing courage when it's needed. And i act for the values i say i have.
I think somewhere in my list i cak keep Konya as well now. If life gives a chance, I'll go to Konya too.
Goodnight ❤️❤️
too.