Dear Diary,
Let's just say I absolutely hate my father... I am just waiting for the day I get married and leave this hell hole...
I just feel sorry for my mother... She didn't deserve this... I have told her that she can come and live with us if she wants, but she thinks of him as her duty but I know even my mom has had enough of him... If he keeps giving us a hard time, I have decided I will never talk to him ever again in life after getting married... Like whatever happens I won't see him or talk to him... I know he deserves it but we still have a soft corner for him as he has schizophrenia and other mental disorders... But that doesn't change the fact that he is an aweful and selfish human being....
I really think people like him should not give birth....
I do feel so relieved about getting married and living in a loving and positive household... Bae and his family everyone is really nice... Bae's father is no more. One day Bae said to me that its so sad his father is no more, otherwise I would have known how it feels to have a good father figure in life...
But I have the world's best mom so its still fine... She is an inspiration to me and others, she has played the role of both mom and dad... And that to exceptionally well... She fought all odds and sacrificed so much for us... Whatever we are we are because of her, otherwise we would most probably be begging on streets if it was upto my dad....
Because he only wants to spend his money on alcohol and ciggerates... At the age of 64, monthly he spends 30k on alcohol and ciggerates... Whatever little amount he spends on us he feels like he did us a favour..
Even the house we live in was bought by mom single-handedly... In searching and purchasing nowhere he helped... Because of her only my father get's pension / was able to keep his job ... That's a different story for another day...
Regards,
Anne