Dear Diary,
प्रेम इस सृष्टि का सबसे कठीन सुख है।
Hii,
I was very anxious today since morning, I tried to overcome it by listening music and ofcourse I find "आरंभ है प्रचंड " very helpful most of time but today it failed, I like this line very much " कि युद्ध ही तो वीर का प्रमाण है, ...जो लड़ सका है वही तो महान है।"
I have given for the laptop to get repaired I don't know how much it will cost this time ;| I have decided to do some meditation from tomorrow, I had some plans but I need my laptop for that, I was little okay till evening, I ate so many things today, I cooked today afterall cooking helps me healing little bit, I at golgappas both dry and pani one, I ate crispy corn, momos, I cooked egg curry and tried cooking Kalakand for the first time and it turned out little good not perfect but my added flavour was good too. It is rainy season so I like evening tea and I love the aroma of tea especially because of a lot of ginger. Today my papa was ill some kind of flu, and S is also ill since 2-3days I have now understood that he also have such a weak immunity, always falling ill.
Rest all the turned out to be unproductive although in the morning I tried to utilise the day but I wasn't okay, this anxious feeling was overpowering me and I always overthink and get myself to this condition. Anyways I am fine now.
I will start gardening again from tomorrow. I will make most of the tomorrow.
Good night.