today

Dear Diary, things are weird. i think i feel better than i have been the past week or so. my feelings are still hurt, my ego is still bruised, it’s just not as tender i guess.

ann told me to abstain from talking to him, just to see if he’s at all interested in talking to me. he sent me a meme and i responded to it but he’s ignored me all day. i’m just confused. ann says he’s pushing me away because he’s leaving town. it never seemed like a big deal, but maybe it makes sense…. having romantic feelings for someone is complicated. this whole situation makes me never want to speak to an outside person again. i want to lay in bed and distract myself on the internet forever. 

i want to, but i cant. i can’t sign up for classes at the local college until next year… i need to figure out my next step because i can’t spend another year wasting away being a babysitter. i love my sister but for both of our sakes i need to get a drivers license and get out of this house.