Dear Diary, today was a lazy day. Felt dull all day long. I spent day sleeping, watching videos etc. so tired that I skipped hair wash. but I went walk in the evening around 7. Not that hot.
A.C. is available now so I feel good.
I’m currently really into YouTube videos about journaling method. But I have already realized that I can not only keep copying others method but I need to create my own method.
I just threw away diary pages I found. I always end up like this. Keep diary some weeks or months, Keep the notebook, then find one after a year then read then cry then rip then toss.
I am always trying to get out of something. I should have more will power, I should be more mentally and physically healthy. I feel depressed feel dizzy… something like that! Since when I was in high school.
But the difference is, now I know I don’t need to be affected by others to lock myself out from my true version of me. I am different than before. Okay let’s keep journal until I finish a notebook.