Dear Diary,
अबके हम बिछड़े तो शायद कभी ख्वाबों में मिलें,
जिस तरह सूखे हुए फूल किताबों में मिलें,
ढूंढ उजड़े हुए लोगों में वफ़ा के मोती,
ये खज़ाने तुझे मुमकिन है खराबों में मिलें।
Hii
Today was another day similar to my everyday. I feel I have turned lazy because I am skipping my dance classes, gym,etc. My house has turned messy from so many days but I don't feel like putting things back to their places. I said him to talk at home once again and he said that he was also thinking about the same thing but he said that don't be very optimistic and he doesn't want to give me any false hopes and his family is pressurising him to talk to some girl they have chosen, etc etc. It feels bad but it's alright. I went outside and from there I went to salon and got a haircut, from long hair to short in length. After that I rushed to come back so that I can talk to him but it was quite late there and because of this I had thought of eating Kulfi I missed that too and I paid extra fare for that rickshaw too which I didn't wanted. But thik hai.
As I was feeling demotivated I watched Aspirants again and it's always so motivating and inspiring doesn't matter how many times you watch it. I thought to implement some positive approach in my life but till evening I was down again. I went to the garden at night, I sat their for a while, I called Nishant today, Idk after how many months but after a very long time and he being a good listener was listening everything as Idk he was really interested in knowing everything or he was just asking and listening, it's good to go back to your school friends, a friend who used to be a very close friend once. After that I came to the flat and ate ice cream, juices , full on carb intake, but eating carbs makes you happy alongwith making you fat. I am sleepy now. I got some kind of job offer from a startup company but I don't feel like doing that and I don't want to relocate to Jaipur at this time in life.
Everyone ask me that what do I do here alone whole day apart from studies and all and I have no answer for it.
I do feel lonely sometimes but I am used to it and I like living alone, I like my privacy.
I want to get drunk and remain tripsy for a long but its not possible here.
Okay diary, my heart is feeling so heavy right now, so with the heavy heart Goodnight.