Dear Diary, I know it means he doesn't care for me but sometimes I like to believe he does love me/ care for me but then again I shouldn't seek his approval. I always have hope that someone will see as worth their time and energy. I hope God will forgive me for my sins and the men I let in my life. I'm so tired of trying to be here for everyone I just want someone to care for me the way i would for them. I heard that God gives you only what you can handle but I'm on my last
wim. I hope God will let me be happy with myself and guide me through this rough few years because I really need him more than ever.