Dear Diary,
Hii, I am writing today again although it's midnight and date have changed, writing journal really helps me as a lot of thoughts are running in my mind at once and Idk where to pour it, so I do it here. It's my birthday on 14th and as you know I am always this excited, I never demand anything from people not even from my parents as birthday present but this time I have asked Shikhar to buy me a gift something special, idk what he is gonna send me. Although I have never met him and Idk in my entire life if I will be able to meet him for even once or not but I don't know how I feel so connected to him and so comfortable with him, he hasn't hurt me till now, maybe this is the reason, he has never mistreated me, listened to my never-ending blabbering and he remembers everything I have told, he didn't even ghosted, he is still there but yes he is maintaining some distance as in the end we are not going to be together but leaving him is very difficult this time because I don't have any anger or hatred, it's just that we can't be together but I love him as a person, he is too good for me, he could have been a perfect life partner for me apart from he being too busy always but things could have worked. Although it can't happen so why to be sad by thinking all these. I have made many demands from him, like I want him to buy me a gift, plant one fruit plant at his home there and take care of it and to gift me trees like donate to some save trees kind of trust and he has figured it out, after writing here I will write a letter to him too, I want to say something to him too or say and ask both, confessions and demands, I just demand from him coz somewhere I know he is not gonna say no and he can and he will fulfill it. I wish I could hug him tightly but it's okay.
Everything is good. I am feeling light now.
Good night diary.