Dear Diary,
"Jaruri nahi ki jaise tum pyar karte ho, tumhara premi bhi thik waise hi pyaar jataye".
~Priya Malik
Hii, Today was as usual, but yes today I was not anxious at all maybe the reason could be because the other body aches overcomed it. I woke with headache and that ankle pain is back, I made tea for myself tea with great aroma and flavor and had a good morning But I couldn't concentrate on my studies, idk why, I will have to as now exam dates are out too and window is also open for slot bookings and paying examination fee. Neither I do exercise or anything, I just keep eating. No calls or messages from him till the evening and I was about to send a toxic message to him but I stopped myself because I knew he must be tired and will be sleeping but deep down I wanted to send some unpleasant message but I didn't and later he texted and called too, I was like acha hua I didn't sent any such messages, I always recall the video I saw on YouTube unerase poetry " Jaise tum pyaar karte ho " by Priya Malik, it's the truth and I know that but still I am on emotional roller coaster ride these days. Anyways I had a good evening same as usual went to the terrace listened songs , cool wind was blowing and I was having walk, I played "Pasoori" on repeat, idk after knowing the meaning meaning of the lyrics I like listening to that song, although it's Pakistani song, had dinner and now I am lying on the bed and writing my journal. And yes today I called Shashanka too because he was saying I don't call back or respond properly, I laughed during the whole conversation that my face muscles started hurting, it feels good to laugh like these after several days today also he said that agar koi nai milega toh marry me,he always says this whenever we talk, idk why he crack this joke because I don't find it funny and I just turn silent for a moment so that he can feel bad 😂, rest everything was as usual, somethings were not okay but not that important to mention here.
Have a good night, bbye :)
https://youtu.be/iirHomDLZ0o