Dear Diary,
I am feeling sick since evening, headache, fever kind of feeling, weak, lazy.
It was an annoying day, in the midnight I woke up with Harshit's messages, I was half sleepy so I have no idea what he was saying but I don't know why he is behaving like this, sometimes I feel he is slightly behaving like I used to before but atleast I am talking to him and giving him a proper response, I can't ask him to to stay away or not to text as he was the only person who helped me to overcome my anxiety last year he was there always a certain period of time, so it's my turn to repay. It was mother's day but the gift I had ordered hasn't ready yet so I was pissed off as that girl isn't even replying anyways I will give it to my mum later, I click a selfie with mummy and posted it on fb as my mom likes social sharing of things and we went outside, I wanted to drive but they didn't let me drive more than 10 mins, I was annoyed again. I am pissed off from Shikhar too neither he is letting me go nor giving me proper time, like he is always busy, what did I wanted, just a conversation for 10 mins but he kept me waiting till the time that I was unable to answer, I am hating this too, this time I am really pissed off, angry too. This time he has to do some efforts if he wanna talk to me and wtf is this that I am thinking too much, take it easy etc, I am behaving like this bcoz I am really pissed off, anyways I am not marrying him , I always wanted a person who atleast have one or two days completely free for me, he is busy in the office then his so many restaurants, then his so called relatives, why I have to always deal with such kind of people who try to be great, like being super hero for everyone except me , anyways this time I am really angry, I am not gonna talk to him what will you do with so much money when you don't have time for yourself or your closed ones, when you miss little but lovely moments with family partner while you are busy in making money. I am just irritated from everything today, mostly because of him.
Today I can't make time for workout or anything, just I am wasting my life in wrong places and people.
It's better to sleep.
Gn