Dear Diary,
Iam thinking about sharing my story on youtube. BUT without showing my face and body because i feel so ugly and fat. I want to break silence. I want to make new friends may build a community but i am also scared about it. I am afraid that people will not like me. I want to talk about my traumatic childhood and about my relationship with my abusive ex (he stalked,r*ped and did other traumatic sh*t) My message is YOU ARE NOT ALONE and i know that i am not alone with it. But i still feel alone and there are some parts i never had told to anyone but thats the problem on this planet so many people are ashamed about telling their whole story. I am also afraid and i don't want attention thats why i will not show my face etc. or my social media accounts. I want to be that anonym.girl. I would like to meet people with a simillar past but i want them to contact me or i will contact them. For exaple: Someone posts a comment below my video "My story is similar to yours wanna be friends ? Message me!"
I will think about this because i am not 100% sure if i will be able to share my story this way or not...