GlowUpBarbie's Dear Diary

I had 5 panic attacks today and i haven't recovered from them yet. I feel like i was runnig for hours but i sat on the bathroom floor crying and i could not breath. I felt like there is no escape... and i still feel that way. I can't stop overthinkin

Dear Diary, Iam thinking about sharing my story on youtube. BUT without showing my face and body because i feel so ugly and fat. I want to break silence. I want to make new friends may build a community but i am also scared about it. I am afraid th

Dear Diary, I can't take this pain anymore. I was so hopeful because of my appointment for today but at the end i went home dissapointed again. I feel so alone and there is no hope left in my soul. Now i just let it be if soething good will happen

Dear Diary, Negative self talk and a self doubt is as normal to me as drinking water every day. No matter how many self-help books i read i am not able to follow this tips. I feel so stupid. I love self-help books especially books about spiritualit

Dear Diary, Finally i survived another day. I had several mental breakdowns again and i always try so hard to not cry but every day i am falling apart. I don't know how to stop this flashbacks. I tried to meditate but - failed I am not able to cal

Dear Diary, Sometimes i feel like i will never find happiness and live a life without depression and anxiety. Everything seems so hopeless. I just want to be happy and healthy. I want to talk about it but i am also afraid of talking about it becaus

Dear Diary, I need professional help. I can't deal with this flashbacks anymore. Flashbacks about what my abusive Ex-boyfriend did to me..I am so afraid. I hate him. I hope he will end up in jail but i'm fearing the trial. I don't what to tell ever

I feel so empty and i am sick of trying. Everything seems so hopeless. I wish that i could stop feeling so much. I hate my life. Waking up and asking myself WHY ? became a huge part of my daily routine..I have no one to talk with and i am so sick of

I feel so alone and everything is so hopeless. Every day i feel more and more depressed. I am crying like a baby every day. I had a mental breakdown 2 days ago and haven't recovered fro, this yet. I still feel like i haven't slept for 96hrs or more.

Every day is a battle. A battle with myself and with my demons called depression and anxiety. I feel so alome and lost. Sometimes i think i should give up. Give up fighting against my depression. I should let it b. It is so stressful to try to NOT ha

Dear Diary, i had the worst mental breakdown ever yesterday and i haven't recovered from it yet. I'm feeling like i'm having a big hangover but without any alcohol. I juust want to stay in bed but i also want to be able to enjoy my life.

I am disappointed and ended up having a painc attack again. It sucks that nothing works the way i want it to. I am sick of trying. I am sick of getting disappointed every day. I am sick of waiting to finally get help. I am sick of those people who ar

I feel so depressed all the time. I thought that i am used to it one day but the truth is that i`m not used to it and i will never be used to it. I am so trapped in my mind and this sucks. I feel so hopeless and i am afraid that i never will be able