Dear Diary,
Sometimes i feel like i will never find happiness and live a life without depression and anxiety. Everything seems so hopeless. I just want to be happy and healthy. I want to talk about it but i am also afraid of talking about it because while talking about it the pics are coming back. Those pics about evrything what happened and it feels like i'm sitting in the cinema while watching a thriller - my own thriller. I don't want to see this thriller over and over again but pushing all this pain away is toxic too. I wish that i could be mentally stronger but - i am not.