I feel so empty and i am sick of trying. Everything seems so hopeless. I wish that i could stop feeling so much. I hate my life. Waking up and asking myself WHY ? became a huge part of my daily routine..I have no one to talk with and i am so sick of feeling like shit every day. I need help but no one wants to help me. I can't describe whats going on in my mind even if i would love to share my thoughts - i can't and i am afraid to dig deeper because this hutrs. Thinking about what happened in my past just hurts so much. I can't take this pain anymore...
I know that i need a rherapist but what if this will not help me ? What if i never will be happy and healthy again?