April 03, 2022

Every day is a battle. A battle with myself and with my demons called depression and anxiety. I feel so alome and lost. Sometimes i think i should give up. Give up fighting against my depression. I should let it b. It is so stressful to try to NOT have a panic attack. I don't want to push away and ignore my emotions anymore. I hate that i need to act like evrything is fine..i just did it for my family. 

I need professional help. I feel like i can't control my emotions and i can't stay focused. I turned off my phone on friday and i still have not turned it on yet. I want to be alone. I wish i had someone to talk about everything. But there are special things i am ashamed to talk about