Dear Diary,
It's gotten to a point where I see airplanes and feel jealous because I'm tired of this hellhole. There was a day I went with my dad to pick my uncle from the airport, I saw so many kids my age with their boxes about to travel out of the country and I felt so bad, and that time all my friends were in private universities while I was at he cause my parents didn't have money for that, it was a sad experience to be honest, but last year during December I got a call from a public university, one of the best universities in my country( public universities are better and harder than private ones), I got admission I was so happy, I finally went to school in December, it was though, so many assignments I hated it but loved it at the same time because I finally could relate to all the stories of how tiring university can be and that made me happy, well for a short while, this new lecturer came and started making public speaking mandatory and I have severe anxiety so that scared me, luckily my school went on strike, I've been at home since February,but before the strike, my mom broke the news to me that my uncle wants me to come and study in the USA, so as you can see I have plans to study in the USA but getting visa and money is the problem, I need about $750 for all this and not to talk of playing american school fees, I'm so stressed but at the same time I can't do anything about it, my uncle told me to look for a school in new York or new Jersey that'll offer me a one year scholarship ( he has 4 kids so I don't really blame him for not being able to fully support me) my mom is planning to getting a business and I hope her business blooms so she can at least support me for a while because I have to get a job after that on year so I can help out too, I'm honestly so scared this whole process is so enervating, I just pray to God that I go for the visa interview and they give me. If I made any error here forgive me lol