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We were so close 🙄 Peru and I were getting along just fine since our last big argument and she will be coming this Saturday. I was actually fucking believing this time we were not going to have any issues and here we are because I accepted a phone call from Peru last night at 12. She asked me an hour in if I wanted to continue talking to her and I stated I wanted to do whatever she wanted to do so we continued talking. She shared some personal shit the first hour and I felt like she was feeling better and then after she asked me if I wanted to continue talking, she spent the next hour I believe telling me she has very strong feelings for me almost love I suppose. I didn't say much because I'm not going to lie and tell her I'm in love with her when I'm not at this moment. I want to hang out with her and find out. I feel like I've been saying this since last year and yet Peru claims I just want to be friends. It's so fucking frustrating. I don't understand her. I feel like she fucks with me for entertainment and I don't know why? So she tells me her true feelings and I guess she wanted me to agree or say the same to her, but I told her I just want to hang out with her in February. She asked if I wanted to continue talking now at 2 AM and I stated I was sleepy. It's 2 in the fucking morning and we have been talking for 2 hours. She changed instantly and got pissed off at me and claimed I don't care about her... I'm beyond frustrated and I don't want to let go until we hang out. It's up to Peru now. I doubt we will hang out, but there's always hope. Now she is literally hurting me on fucking purpose and telling me she is going to spend the night with another dude. I don't know if it's true, but I do know I will be pissed if she does spend the night with this dude. Idk I completely understand her being mad at me because I told her the truth, but I hate lying. Nothing has changed for a month and she believes I am playing with her. I just want to hang out with her. Shit hasn't changed with us arguing constantly. I want to let it go, but I want to know for sure if we actually hang out. I'm done writing I guess. Same old shit and I stick with it. I just want my answer
-DrAW