Dr. Azul Waffle 's Dear Diary

We were so close 🙄 Peru and I were getting along just fine since our last big argument and she will be coming this Saturday. I was actually fucking believing this time we were not going to have any issues and here we are because I accepted a phone c

Whoa! So Peru just told me she doesn't find me physically attractive (no surprise there) and she's afraid her thoughts of this is going to impede her decision making. I understand her thinking and I know people do think like that, but this kind of ce

Peru is very interesting... she changes her mind about me daily. Lol I really don't blame her because it's hard to trust people, especially those from a different country. I feel like she doesn't know what she wants or she is afraid of falling in lov

Peru be trippin LMAO anyways... I'm not crazy af like I was days ago. That shit was embarrassing and sad. She claimed I was playing her this entire fucking time. That is just insane. I really think she wanted me to commit long term. She claims she sa

I'm very confused, upset, depressed, and most importantly losing confidence in myself. I just have this gut feeling that Peru manipulates me by asking me random questions or changing her mind constantly about everything. She stated many times she doe

I haven't wrote in a while because everything has been going good in my life and with Peru. I take that back. My hiatal hernia surgery isn't scheduled until March 10 and I've been in pain for quite a while. I can't work out, I can't bend over, I can'

Peru got a hold of me at 3 AM on Saturday. I've been talking to her again all fucking day and have even shared these entries with her. I don't really care who reads this, even if it is the person I am writing about. This helps me more than anything a

Peru has been running through my head all fucking day. I keep thinking about little details in which I felt like she never liked me more than a friend and how she would try to manipulate me into just being friends. She once said that she doesn't know

I thought about Peru all day today and I didn't cry, but my eyes definitely welted up... I miss talking to her, but I know it's for the best. I almost downloaded Whatsapp again, but I don't want to hurt myself. So many scenarios run through my head w

I finally understand why I never tried to date anyone until I was 30... I fucking hate to hurt others feelings. Peru and myself met six months ago on Tinder and we have text each other everyday for the last six months. Every fucking day... I honestly