Dear Diary, do you think I am someone who deserves to suffer all this shit? I don't know when did I become like this, I can say that I am no more the person I used to be. I have Lost track of everything, I don't bother to finish my work which I used to love, there used to be a version of me who was interested in many things but now I don't care about anything. I am holding up with the circumstance and I want to be the old myself. It's not that easy I know that but I have to work on myself otherwise it will get worse. The main problem is that most of the time I get paranoid by trauma in the morning I don't feel like waking up from bed, I kept on asking myself why the day has to end and again it needs to start? Why can't it be just one stretch day and the lifespan will be over? I wake up in the morning at around 7 am and for at least 1 hr till it becomes 8 am. I try to convince myself by explaining that it's all going to be fair, it's just a phase of life, that has to end eventually. Sometimes I try to comfort myself by saying it's just a bad dream going on when you wake up everything will be back to normal. I know it is not just me, out there are my brothers and sisters who are feeling the same. I just wanted to tell you one thing, Keep fighting, you are a warrior. Let's get through this together.