Dear Diary,
Me and my Fiancé have been looking for a house but he wants us to wait at least 2 months before we move, so what is the point in looking if we wont even move for another 2 months? I am ready to move out of my moms house like yesterday I thought when he sent me information about a house that he would be interested into looking into it and moving when he got paid next but NOPE he is still stuck on waiting 2 months but he doesn't understand how annoyed I am he sleeps on a couch yes I know but that couch is at least comfortable where as I sleep on an old mattress that a spring is starting to come out and poke me and I flipped the mattress now the same thing is happening to the other side our old bed was falling apart because of his dog so we threw it away so this mattress is my only option besides sleeping on the hard ground I am over it plus I miss falling asleep next to my fiancé and making dinners I am so miserable he is helping his brother get a house he just has to pay half the rent but to me that money could be used toward getting us a house I am starting to think he prefers living with his brother for the freedom of being able to hangout with his buddies whenever he wants since I have anxiety and days that I don't want people over plus most of his buddies when they do come over don't clean up after themselves which makes me mad because I am not there mama and I am not maid I already clean up after myself, my fiancé and my 5 year old daughter, he also wants us to get a roommate which to me roommates aren't a long term thing and aren't for someone lookin for a long term home which he doesn't understand because he just sees it as a way to save money but I see it as another person I have to cook for and clean up after since apparently no ones mamas taught them how to clean up after themselves.