January 26, 2022

Dear Diary, I wish I had someone to love me for me all of me. That would go out of their way to see me. To embrace me. That looks at me with love and hope. That I can see myself marry them. I wouldn't feel like I have to tell them to be loved a certain way and they would just do it, know it. They would love my flaws and be the thing that makes me flawless to them. I promise if I do I wouldn't let you go. I would just love them. Even when things are hard I would know they love me. Why can't I find that? I feel loveless.. every time I try to be someone's someone they use me foe something. Like I'm an object to bring them back to life. A toy in their box and when they find someone else that they love. They just leave me like I didn't matter like. I was never the girl to bring home to see the family. I was always the girl you're talking to. Never anything more than just a fling.