November 30, 2021

Dear God, I feel me so, so afraid. I am scared to go to youth meeting. I am afraid a lot ... I am afraid I will be rejected. I will be judged. i will me misunderstood. I will be critised. I will be ignored. Nobody will notice me. Everybody will notice me. I am afraid. A lot ..

I am terrified. And scared. As a little baby. Shouting from fear. Very big. Great fear. Just terriable. Fear. Enormous.

I don't understand why X do not do nothing like... Serving. I don't like he doesn't serve through media. I am jealous of his trips. If his... Travels. I am afraid our relationship are fake. I am afraid to go to this church. To the second... Commune. I am afraid to see people. Everybody. Everyone. I am afraiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid. I want to fill... To publish my boook in GoodNovel...

Yes.