Dear Diary,
I had a really bad day. My mood was off the whole time so I slept for 7 hours after coming from school. LOL that was pointless tho. Maybe I don't really have any luck wd boys I guess. Its like, the guy I like never likes me back, n the guy I don't like at all, likes me. WTF plz someone give me a remote to control my hormones; I wanna switch them off. Throughout my teenage, I've always had a crush at every point of life, just so that things get a little interesting. The point of having a crush was that there would be smtg to look forward to in school. Y'all know school crushes r the best. But I'm such a mutt that I start taking these silly feelings seriously. After a while, I feel so obsessed, I think its love. Oh why don't I grow up?! I don't need a boy to be happy, but why do I think I do? You might think I don't like myself, so I crave for male validation. But nah! I really love myself a lot. I guess that's why I'm not crying for him right now, because I know I should not mess with my mental health for a boy. I'm more important than anyone else. I cried a lot last year for someone who left me just like that, and I swear those tears were enough to save a whole city suffering from drought. I moved on from that guy in December. I liked him for 5 years you know. So you can guess how hard it was for me. Well...now that I said all this, I feel like I was upset over such a small thing. A rejection isn't that bad, compared to what I went through. Oh lol I'm nuts jeez. I'm fine now for sure. Good Night people! 😌
Yours, RM ♡